Carrot and donkey...hmph.

Well, I spoke to my boss. She wasn't surprised I wanted to quit with how hectic things are at work just now, she asked me to consider working part time instead. I've accepted her offer because it means I still have some money coming in but I won't be there every single day and there's a chance for me to get some of my life back. The only drawback is, she wants me to continue on in my role even though I am part time. I've explained the reasons why, and that the role I have now is the main reason for me dropping my hours, but she isn't getting it. I guess if it's only 2 days per week it's not a huge issue and I'll just have to learn to delegate to other people, although not everyone will like it. Plus it goes against my principle of not being in a senior role if I am part time, what right do I have to tell full time staff what to do? I will just have to see how it pans out, hopefully I won't have to go back to full time in three months, I'm crossing everything that the agency comes through for me. I should get my new rota finalised tomorrow so I'll have a better idea of what I'm doing when. I have my first shift in th pub tonight, it's more of a training session to see how it goes but I'm calling it a nights work, my shifts proper start towards the end of this month, only 2 days per week but it's better than nothing! Really looking forward to it but nervous at the same time, is it possible to pull a pint wrong?!

Winging it...

Well, I've finally made up my mind. I've decided that today I am going to quit my job. There are many reasons why, the main one simply being I've had enough. It's gone from the odd bad day to every day me coming home feeling terrible and not wanting to go back. I think when it gets to that point it's time to leave. Naturally I will miss the ladies but when it's time to go there's not much you can do. I've re signed up to the agency, I'm also hoping to get an evening job and work in the pub downstairs, so at least there will be some regularity ( I hope!) unfortunately it means the wedding is on hold for now :( I am hoping to get into something admin based eventually, I've just signed up for a free IT course which is a recognised qualification, takes 16 weeks to complete, but any time I'm not working I will be working on it! Luckily Mr A is supporting me in my decision, he understands how unhappy I've been. I just wish it hadn't come to this :(

stitchy bug came back!!

Managed to do about two hours last night. It's amazing what you can get done when the house is tidy and your head isn't chock full of other worries. I didn't get a whole lot done but it is better than nothing. Got lazy on the backstitch of the frog, so decided to start one of the others, might do backstitching at the end, along with the white for the eyes. Here it is!!

Getting there...

Well, my little cocktail of medicines appears to be kicking in, not quite as out of breath, although a small walk to a couple of local shops and back had me stopping on the way home clinging to a lamp post!! I've got antibiotics too, I went back to the doctors yesterday as I was still feeling very puffed out, so he gave me those to rule out any infection. Those tablets are worse than the ones I took for my back! At least I got two doses of those, this morning I took them before breakfast (bad move) and half hour later I felt seriously queasy. OH has been on them before for something else and he said they might make me feel pukey. I didn't listen though because not everyone has the same reactions to drugs, figured I'd be ok. so tomorrow I'm going to try and make sure I've eaten. I think I'll have to stick to taking them in the morning because I don't think I'd like lying there in the dark feeling sick, that's not nice. Luckily it's only for a few days and they're all gone. Just hope when the chest clears up I won't need the inhaler anymore...bit self conscious about using it in front of people! Decided not to go into work today, think it was the right thing to do, if walking to the local shop does me in, then I'm not ready for work yet. Got tomorrow off and then I'm back in Monday afternoon. Still busily looking for something else, I really can't wait to try something different. I've applied to a place in birmingham where they will train me up on the job, the money is pants but it's better hours. I'm also thinking of shelling out a bit and doing something called an 'ECDL' qualification, apparently it's nationally recognised and uses all the skills office employers look for. Told OH if I haven't found something in three months I quit, and that's that, will just have to wing it, or if i get these courses sorted at least that's on my belt. It could even go on my CV that I'm working towards them. Feeling really bad that I haven't managed to get any stitching done, just not got the bug atm!! too many other things going on.

Well, that was a lil scary

So, went off to the docs and saw the nurse, soon as I walked into her office she was like 'oh!' she checked me over, everything normal, she didn't think it was asthma, although I'm convinced I had it when I was small but mum says no, but maybe she forgot. So there was I, gasping like a landed fish thinking 'just figure it out dammit, I can't breathe!!' So she got the senior doc in, who incidentally is my gp. Told him the tablets he gave me for my back were horrid! He made me do a peak flow test, lung function came out at 68%, he said it looked like asthma aggravated by this cold. Told him it made sense cos every time I get a cold my chest gets bad for 24 hours but this went on for two days. So chances are I've had it for a long time, especially as I've lost count of the number of times people have asked me if I've got asthma! Told him about my raised temps running between 100-103f so he sent me off for a chest x ray to rule out pneumonia, steroids and inhalers was enough of a whammy, chest x ray made it scary!! So, have been sat at home, breathing is a lil better, although I have just been sat here quiet and it's started off again, he said if steroids don't work by tomorrow I have to go back in and they will get x ray results sharpish. He also said if I catch cold to always carry my inhaler!! Yes sir!! Lol

Thankyou to Nicola at http://stitch-nicola.blogspot.co.uk This is my first ever blog award!!! :)) There are conditions attached to this award, so here is the text I copied from Thea with my blogs added to the end: Liebster is a German word meaning favourite, dearest or beloved. The Liebster Blog Award is awarded by bloggers to other new bloggers who have fewer than 200 followers, to help spread the word about their blogs and to help them gain wider recognition. The Liebster award comes with four conditions that each recipient must satisfy when accepting. 1. Choose 5 up-and-coming blogs with less than 200 followers to award the Liebster to. 2. Show your thanks to the blogger who gave you the award by linking back to them. 3. Post the award on your blog. List the bloggers you are giving the award to with links to their sites. Leave comments on their blog so they know about the award. 4. Share 5 random facts about yourself that people don't know about you. so now I have to award this to five other people first up is 1.http://joysze.blogspot.co.uk/ your blog is always beautiful to look at and I loved your chinese mandala garden!! 2.http://diaryofamanbroider.blogspot.co.uk/ your stitching is amazing, plus I've never seen anyone stitch so fast in my life. 3.http://mangogirl-naughtscrossstitches.blogspot.co.uk/ Love reading your blog, and your boxers were fabulous. 4.http://kingdomofcrossesqueenofflosses.blogspot.co.uk/ I love to look at your latest projects 5. http://crossstitchdude.blogspot.co.uk/ Your work is fab, it's nice to see more men cross stitching! Five random facts about me... 1. my little fingers are double jointed! 2. I detest anything flavoured with aniseed, liquorice or fennel 3. I tried Cherry Cola the other day and wondered why I didn't like it. It's because it tastes like Dr Pepper 4. my worst nightmare would be getting locked in a room somewhere. with spiders. 5. My dream date night would be chinese and a pint before going to see a concert or a film.

Bleugh :/

Well, I've been off sick since Tuesday, what started as a heavy cold appears to have turned into bronchitis. I have spent the last three nights sat bolt upright in bed, with hardly any sleep. The last two days I've had a temperature regularly running between 100f and 103f, seriously not good! Now I know how a lobster feels when it's cooked!! Thankfully that has come down now, although I am still struggling to eat properly, I might have to stock up on soup today. Rang the docs and she said there were no appointments (why am I not surprised) so she got the triage nurse to ring me back, who almost immediately said I have to come in, so I have an appointment at 11.50 this morning. Spoke to my boss and said I wasn't coming in again, she asked if I had any idea when I'm coming back and I said I've no idea. Being able to sleep and eat would help. In other news, I've had a job offer via email. It's working in finance, no experience necessary, they will train you online and they will pay you to take the course. I have asked for more info, apparently they Re opening an office in Birmingham so I just need to find out where! The money is fantastic, double my current salary! That'd sure help with the wedding planning and sorting out the house.